At the moment i am so confused and uncommited with what i work as i dont have the drive to do anything.
I feel i have an interstet to do a lot of things and for some reason i just dont have the drive to do anything
Its been 2 years since i came to australia come this July and no customers since Linfox, which ended on March 30
I am nervous that i don't have the drive to do anything, as all i do in a day (atleast for the past 4 days) is get up at 8 and take english class, take up oracle , goto gym and watch tv series and study english here and there.
Am i tensed that i dont have a job since wednesday last week? Yes I am
But do i have enough of it that drives me to do something great and extraordinary? No
I think its a herculean effort to stay focused and have a feeling that you want to acheive something even when you are in your 60s, when i think of Taavu
But yet again its not hopeless like i was when i started off in Australia and without mom and taavu next to me where i was demotivated and all i did was goto work, eat, sleep and workout, which literally felt made me feel like I am an animal
when it comes to who i am and what i can actually do and do it in a topnotch class, which is working out. I dont think i have been doing that a fair deal because 2 years ago i was at 105 and now i am at 95. Which means that in the past 2 years with lots of ups and downs i have finally reduced only 10 kgs in 2 years.
All people think that, and also from the way i talk get a sense that i am workout freak, but in reality thats not true. I am not committed to it for a lifetime, just like i am commited to eating everyday for a lifetime.
I promise myself that i
Also sometimes when i underform in my head, which i do most of the time, I feel that i have to stop watching movies cause i do a lot. The problem in anything i do is i cant stop myself when i start it and regret it later.
Eg: Watching TV series the whole night and not get up in the next morning and regret not going to workout
Starting off eating cakes as a sample, and then cant stop myself because i am addicted to them. Oh yes, I do admit now at 26 years 10 months 10 days that i have a sweet tooth. Not just a sweet tooth. but i am addicted to sweets
Although somethings that i am really certain and strong about include. I do have a big list, but i have just goto prioritize them
1. Learn a language (Malayalam at the moment .. Thanks to DQ Salmaan. To be honest why i picked malayalam is not because of DQ, cause thats so superficial. If you ask me tahts because i need a reason to pick something up and start getting busy with it, cause otherwise i am so not
2. Build a nice amazing great website. Thats a lot of adjectives
3. Build lots of mobile apps in the area of GK, Event Management Mobile App, Games etc
4. Revise Java Concepts and practise on them
5. Learn english grammar, vocabulary and idioms
6. Give a english language test like GRE or IELTS to get confidence for the level of english i have and also a chance to improve my english, cause to be honest i am not great at it. I don't want to have that level of english most typical indians would have. I want to be a shashi tharor, Steve Jobs or a rabindranath Tagore
7. Attempt for Freelance Journalism . Still not sure in which area. Have to explore the options i have first
8. I want to sing classical music again and also write the songs that taavu taught us in the book and by-heart them and be ready to sing them when with Taavu
9. I want to be able to work out everyday for 1 and half hours. Period. EVERDAY. Not 2 hours but 1 and half hours.
I feel i have an interstet to do a lot of things and for some reason i just dont have the drive to do anything
Its been 2 years since i came to australia come this July and no customers since Linfox, which ended on March 30
I am nervous that i don't have the drive to do anything, as all i do in a day (atleast for the past 4 days) is get up at 8 and take english class, take up oracle , goto gym and watch tv series and study english here and there.
Am i tensed that i dont have a job since wednesday last week? Yes I am
But do i have enough of it that drives me to do something great and extraordinary? No
I think its a herculean effort to stay focused and have a feeling that you want to acheive something even when you are in your 60s, when i think of Taavu
But yet again its not hopeless like i was when i started off in Australia and without mom and taavu next to me where i was demotivated and all i did was goto work, eat, sleep and workout, which literally felt made me feel like I am an animal
when it comes to who i am and what i can actually do and do it in a topnotch class, which is working out. I dont think i have been doing that a fair deal because 2 years ago i was at 105 and now i am at 95. Which means that in the past 2 years with lots of ups and downs i have finally reduced only 10 kgs in 2 years.
All people think that, and also from the way i talk get a sense that i am workout freak, but in reality thats not true. I am not committed to it for a lifetime, just like i am commited to eating everyday for a lifetime.
I promise myself that i
Also sometimes when i underform in my head, which i do most of the time, I feel that i have to stop watching movies cause i do a lot. The problem in anything i do is i cant stop myself when i start it and regret it later.
Eg: Watching TV series the whole night and not get up in the next morning and regret not going to workout
Starting off eating cakes as a sample, and then cant stop myself because i am addicted to them. Oh yes, I do admit now at 26 years 10 months 10 days that i have a sweet tooth. Not just a sweet tooth. but i am addicted to sweets
Although somethings that i am really certain and strong about include. I do have a big list, but i have just goto prioritize them
1. Learn a language (Malayalam at the moment .. Thanks to DQ Salmaan. To be honest why i picked malayalam is not because of DQ, cause thats so superficial. If you ask me tahts because i need a reason to pick something up and start getting busy with it, cause otherwise i am so not
2. Build a nice amazing great website. Thats a lot of adjectives
3. Build lots of mobile apps in the area of GK, Event Management Mobile App, Games etc
4. Revise Java Concepts and practise on them
5. Learn english grammar, vocabulary and idioms
6. Give a english language test like GRE or IELTS to get confidence for the level of english i have and also a chance to improve my english, cause to be honest i am not great at it. I don't want to have that level of english most typical indians would have. I want to be a shashi tharor, Steve Jobs or a rabindranath Tagore
7. Attempt for Freelance Journalism . Still not sure in which area. Have to explore the options i have first
8. I want to sing classical music again and also write the songs that taavu taught us in the book and by-heart them and be ready to sing them when with Taavu
9. I want to be able to work out everyday for 1 and half hours. Period. EVERDAY. Not 2 hours but 1 and half hours.
